Rose
*9 days later …*
The next morning, after Olena's surprise party I woke up
alone in bed. Dimitri wasn't longer at my side and the bed felt empty
without him. I'm ashamed to admit that I turned the apartment upside
down to find him, but he wasn't there. In the end, I only found a
voice mail.
“Hi Roza”, his
voice engulfed me, when I picked up the phone. “When you
wake up and hear this, don't be angry. Yes I am gone, but just for a
while, there are some … things I need to do. See you in a while,
don't worry about me. Well … Yeah, eh, bye.”
That was nine days ago and he still hasn't come back. I
had no idea where he was or why he was away.
I had asked the guys and his family, but no one knew
where he was, not his mother or sisters, nor his best friend Ivan.
And after a week I began to worry about him.
Why not earlier? Because apparently it was “normal”
for Dimitri to disappear for a few days. Nobody knew where he went or
when or why, they just knew he disappeared and came back like nothing
happened in the mean time.
But Ivan told me it's never been more than five days, so
after the school week was over I began to worry. Whenever I tried to
call Dimitri I got straight to voice mail, I tried to text him, but
he never replied. During the week I thought a lot about Dimitri and
I, our so called relationship, if you could even call it that.
I thought about his bruises or the night none of us seemed to be able
to remember. Honestly, I think I just tried to find an explanation
why Dimitri had abandoned me like that, but every time I came up
empty.
How could he change from “I kissed you because I wanted to” to “I'm gone and ignore your calls”. I didn't know why.
How could he change from “I kissed you because I wanted to” to “I'm gone and ignore your calls”. I didn't know why.
So I tried to busy myself, so I wouldn't think too much
about Dimitri or his disappearance or the last time we saw each
other. I spent a lot of time with my parents and at their new house,
the apartment was just too quiet and lonely. But I never slept there,
because every night I hoped Dimitri would sneak into my room at
night, lay down beside me and pull me into his arms. Cheesy and
pathetic, yes, but I still hoped it would happen. It didn't.
I couldn't sleep, of course I did sleep
eventually because my body just gave out, but I slept … I don't
have a word for it,: I had nightmares, my muscles always ached,
because I couldn't seem to find a comfortable position. Every morning
when I woke up, I felt more exhausted than relaxed, it felt like I
had slept all of five minutes.
At school, Lissa and Mia kept me occupied and filled
every second with some girlie talk so I never got the time to think
about Dimitri. Even Eddie, Christian or Adrian tried to cheer me up
and distract me. It worked most times, but not every time. I knew I
behaved like some pathetic excuse of a wife who lost her husband.
Dimitri was just gone for a while, not forever, I knew that, but I
couldn't help but feel that way.
After a while you would think you would get used to it,
being alone in the apartment and such, but I didn't and only God
knows why.
Eddie kept driving me to school and drove me home
afterwards, we became even closer during that time. I don't know how
Eddi knew about Dimitris and my fighting exercises, but he told me he
wanted me to keep learning, so we met up everyday at 3pm and
practiced. His training wasn't like Dimitris at all, but not in a bad
way, I liked it very much and I think I even improved at least a
little. The first three days I felt like hell, but it became better
after some time and I grew used to it.
And while Dimitri was gone Mason did a 180 and was
suddenly at my side, every time I needed him or well, didn't need
him, he was there. He apologized and asked if we could start over and
so we did. I'm happy to have him back in my life, but all in all it
was really weird. He and Eddie were there almost 24/7 and they both
became really good friends.
The only person I barely saw was Ivan.
“Where are you?”, Mason asked.
“Huh?”
He chuckled lightly.
“You got that look again. Where are you with your
thoughts?”, he asked again, smiling brightly.
When he smiled like that and looked at me with so much
happiness, I remembered why I had given him a chance back then. He
was cute, he always was, but not he looked more mature, his jawline
was more defined and looked rather handsome. But he wasn't Dimitri
and since the day Dimitri stepped into my life I couldn't help but
compare every other male to him and nobody compared to him!
So even if Mason was a handsome young man now, beside
Dimitri he looked like a child. I didn't mean this in a bad way, it's
just how I see him now, it's like he transformed into some sort of
younger brother version for me over night.
“Just … Nothing”, I replied.
“When is Eddie coming again?”, Mason asked and
sipped on his coke.
“3pm, Mase, you know that”, I chuckled.
“Just wanted to make sure you're still here with me”,
he smirked.
“Ass”, I mumbled and punched his shoulder lightly.
“Come on Power girl”, Eddie shouted when he entered
like he owned the place.
Mason laughed at my face and I just glared at him.
“Shut up”, I grumbled and went over to Eddie.
Training was great. Every time I ran or fought with
Eddie my mind was set on autopilot and all my thoughts faded away.
Those hours were pure bliss and the highlight of my day.
*Another 3 days later*
The weekend, to days to relax and just do nothing. Of
course my friends tried to meet me or come to the apartment, so I
wouldn't be alone, but I never let them up or picked up the phone. I
was sick of the non stopping “keeping Rose thoughts off of
Dimitri”-thing.
So I told my friends I wanted to be on my own at the
weekend, and I told my parents I did something with my friends. My
mum would freak out if she knew I was alone in this big apartment.
I didn't even know what all the fuss was around, it
wasn't a big deal for me to be alone. Before the whole “being
married to one of the most wanted bachelors in New York”-thing
happened, I had no friends and was always alone, because my parents
had to work all the time. I was used to it. Sure, it was different
now, but not that different and I wasn't five anymore!
“Rose?”, asked Rachel.
I was currently curled up in a ball on the couch in the
living room, watching reruns from some show. I had no clue what is
was about, but I honestly didn't care.
“Yeah?”, I asked.
“There is someone in the lobby who wants to see you”,
Rachel informed me.
“Thank you, Rachel”, I sighed. “But I don't want
to anyone.”
“Rose”, Rachel replied. “It's Mr. Belikov.”
For a split second I thought she meant Dimitri, but then
I remembered that this was actually his apartment, so he would
just barge in, not use the bell and wait for me to let him up.
“Dimitri's father is here?”, I asked a little
unsure.
What the hell could he possibly want from me? And would
he visit me and not call or something. Wasn't he the business man
whose time was worth a fortune?
“I'm afraid so”, Rachel sighed.
I giggled.
“Oh my gosh”, Racheld gushed. “I'm sorry, I
shouldn't have said that, that was out of line.”
“Don't worry, it was funny”, I giggled. “Could
you open up for him, please? I think I need to make myself look more
… presentable.”
I grinned at her and she smiled back. I was still in my
pj's, so I definitely needed to change for his almighty Lord Belikov.
But because I didn't really like Mr. Belikov, I didn't put much
effort into my outfit, I searched for a pair of light blue jeans, a
white top, a black blazer over it and black heels That was it. When I
made my way down the stairs, I saw Dimitri's father waiting by the
door.
“Rose”, he greeted me curtly.
“Mr. Belikov.”
Oh I wished I had called him dad, just to annoy him, but
he didn't deserved to be called something so loving.
“I need to speak to you and my son, do you have a
minute?”
It was like a pang in my chest, like a slap to my face,
reminding me that Dimitri wasn't here. Honestly, I wasn't sure if
Dimitri's father really didn't knew that Dimitri was gone or if he
wanted to hurt me and show me that I wasn't living in a fairytale,
but was only a girl he payed and could control as he pleased.
“Your son isn't here”, I replied in a voice I
didn't recognize at mine. “Can I help you?”
“Yes, you can”, he nodded. “Tell my son what I'm
going to tell you now. There is a gala tomorrow and I need you both
there. Dimitri will start in my business soon enough so he needs to
start meeting important people and behaving like an adult, as do you.
Clothes will be delivered and a limo is picking you up at 7pm. See
you tomorrow night, Rose.”
He gave me a curt nod and turned around.
“Wait”, I called.
“What?”, he asked, already one foot in the
elevator.
“Dimitri has been gone for a few days now and I don't
think he will magically appear today.”
“He will be there tomorrow, Rose”, Mr. Belikov
replied. “Trust me, he won't dare disappoint me.”
And with that he turned around and got into the
elevator.
“I expect you to be there Rose”, he said in his
serious business voice. “Otherwise our deal is canceled and I will
throw your parents out of their house.”
And before I could utter a word the doors slit closed and left me gaping after the devil reincarnated.
And before I could utter a word the doors slit closed and left me gaping after the devil reincarnated.
-o-o-o- Thrown Into His World -o-o-o-
“Are you finished now?”, Mason shouted annoyed.
“No!”, I laughed.
“No!”, I laughed.
“How about now?”, Mason shouted chuckling.
“You're the worst plus one, ever”, I shouted back
laughing.
I put my second earring on and looked at myself in the
mirror. I was wearing a dark blue dress, it almost reached the floor
I was walking on and without the heels to it, I would have stumbled
over the material. The dark color did wonders to my skin and I looked
thinner than I was. I liked it.
“Okay”, I said while I opened the bedroom door.
“I'm ready to go.”
I didn't believe Dimitri would turn up tonight. Why
would he? And even if he came back tonight, he wouldn't be at this
gala, because he didn't know about it. So I asked Mason to accompany
me, so I didn't have to go alone. Originally I wanted to ask Eddie,
but he told me he was going with Jill, which surprised m after Jill's
speech of Eddie not wanting her, because he talked about Jill like
she was everything to him. I needed to talk them both alone to get
this straight.
“Wow, Rose”, Mason awed. “You look incredible.”
“Thanks”, I smiled. “You don't look so bad
yourself.”
“Why, thank you”, Mason replied his nose high in
the air.
“Come on”, I giggle and shook my head.
The limo was huge and extremely comfortable. I was glad
Mason accompanied me to this thing, because he was so much fun to be
around. I just hoped I didn't need to meet too many people tonight,
because most of them wanted to meet Dimitri, not me.
When the limo stopped and the chauffeur told us we
arrived at our destination Mason and I exited the limo surprisingly
elegant. But the moment I laid eyes on the building we were supposed
to go in, I stopped dead in my tracks and my eyes went huge.
“Wow”, I breathed.
“Wow, indeed”, Mason whispered beside me.
While we two ogled the scene in front of us, the
paparazzi made hundreds of photos of us. Only seconds later I heard
the reporters shout their questions.
“Rose, where is Dimitri?”
“Are you cheating on Dimitri?”
“Are you already divorced?”
“Is this the father of your baby?”
“Have you dumped Dimitri for this boy?”
When Mason and I were inside and could give our coats to
someone, I apologized at least ten times for the paparazzi, but Mason
waved me off and smiled it all away.
“I'm hungry”, Mason announced. “Come with me?”
“I'm hungry”, Mason announced. “Come with me?”
“Of course, I'm not going to stay here alone”, I
replied with wide eyes.
These business women and men would eat me alive and spit
my earrings out, because they were a gift from my mum to my
sixteenths birthday and cost around 20$ which was a hell of a lot for
me back then for a pair of earrings! And I loved them, because they
were way to expensive back then, but my mum knew I fell in love with
them the moment I saw them and bought them for me. Best birthday gift
ever!
Mason took a plate and filled it with everything
available and ate it within seconds. After Mason was full, we made
our way into an even bigger room. There were tables everywhere, but
these sort of high tables you only stood before and could your drink
place on, so there were no chairs. On every table were candles and on
the alls were paintings some people looked at.
Mason and I looked around and suddenly Mason tensed
beside me. Frowning I turned towards him and followed his eyesight
and who he was looking at.
I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw him. And without
any thinking my body functioned and my feet ran towards him. At first
he didn't see me, but then he and the men he was talking to heard my
heels clicking on the expensive floor and turned around. And then,
finally, finally my arms enveloped the tall frame of my husband.
“Dimitri”, I breathed out.
“Hi Roza”, he answered and gave me a short hug.
But it wasn't a normal hug. Normally he would tighten
his arms around me, kiss my head or at least press my body to mine.
But this time he only wrapped his arms loosely around me and let them
fall back to his sides almost instantly.
“I missed you”, I mumbled into his chest, so only
he could hear me.
Because I didn't let go of him, it wasn't possible, I
just couldn't let him go again. I wasn't able to do that.
“Roza, stop”, he said and pushed me away from him.
Frowning I looked up at him. What the hell?, I
thought. What was wrong with him, he was practically missing for two
weeks and now he treated me like this?!
“Dimitri -”
“Woman, huh?”, Dimitri interrupted me and grinned
at the other men in the circle.
The chuckled together with Dimitri. Did he just really
make fun of me?
“Dimitri, I -”
“Rose, not now”, Dimitri said again.
He smiled down at me, but I could see clear anger in his
eyes and his jaw was clenched. He was angry at me? Why? What the hell
had I done?
“Sure”, I snapped shrugging. “What do I care?”
I stalked back over to Mason, who of course asked what
that whole deal was about, but I didn't want to talk about that, I
was too angry.
I didn't understand Dimitri, I didn't even know why I was angry or if I was angry at Dimitri or myself or these stupid business men or this whole fucking gala event! I just knew I was angry!
I didn't understand Dimitri, I didn't even know why I was angry or if I was angry at Dimitri or myself or these stupid business men or this whole fucking gala event! I just knew I was angry!
“You look like you want to strangle someone”, Mason
mused.
“I do”, I growled.
“Wow, wow, wow”, Mason said and hold his hands up
in surrender. “I'm not volunteering.”
And even if it was a stupid joke, it brought a little
half smile to my face and some of the tension went from my rigid
muscles.
“How about that guy?”, Mason asked and nodded
towards a man I didn't know.
He was currently talking to a woman that was at least 20
years younger than him, but flirted right back. They looked really
cozy and were just about to leave.
“20 bucks she isn't his wife”, Mason said, now
standing beside me, hands in his pockets.
“Why not?”
“He has a ring, she doesn't, duh”, Mason answered.
“Smart-ass”, I giggled.
“You knew that already”, Mason praised himself. “So
why not strangle him? I bet he deserves it.”
Giggling I shook my head, no matter how angry or upset I
was, Mason was able to bring a smile to my face. For a while Mason
and I just stood side by side and watched the old man flirt with the
young woman, probably cheating on his wife that was waiting at home.
“What did the big bad mean husband say that got you
so angry?”, Mason asked all of sudden.
His tone was very calm and collected, way softer than
before. He wanted to know, of course he did, but I didn't answer,
just shook my head. The rest of the night I couldn't keep my eyes off
of Dimitri, but I never got near him. He never even glanced at me,
just talked to some business men. I had no idea what was going on
here, why Dimitri behaved so … so strange.
Mason tried to distract me and to a certain level, he
succeeded. But in the end I couldn't take the “cold shoulder”
anymore.
“Mase, I'm going to get some fresh air”, I
interrupted him.
He looked a little hurt, but nodded understanding. I
thanked him with a hand on his arm and he smiled a little sadly. I
left Mason behind me, I knew he would find Eddie or Eddie him, we had
talked to him already an hour ago, so eventually Mason would get his
company.
I took a deep breath when I went outside and felt a
little better. The air smelt fresh and like grass. A little shiver
went up my spine when the wind blew, but I didn't really care. I was
standing on a small balcony and had a great view of the city.
It was almost midnight, the sky was dark with no stars. Well that was normal, in really big and bright cities, you couldn't see the stars, so that wasn't a surprise. I liked it that way, the only thing illuminating the dark sky was the almost full moon. I have no idea why, but I always loved the moon.
It was almost midnight, the sky was dark with no stars. Well that was normal, in really big and bright cities, you couldn't see the stars, so that wasn't a surprise. I liked it that way, the only thing illuminating the dark sky was the almost full moon. I have no idea why, but I always loved the moon.
Suddenly arms snaked around my waist and a chin was
placed on my shoulder. I let out a high shriek, which made Dimitri
behind m chuckle.
“I missed you”, he chuckled and kissed my temple.
“Oh really?”, I snapped.
“Yeah”, he replied, not noticing my sour mood.
I pulled my arm back and hit Dimitri's chest with my
elbow, so he let go of me and I could turn around and glare at him.
“Seriously?”, I asked.
“Rose, what's wrong?”, Dimitri asked genuinely
curious.
“Are you fucking kidding me?!”, I screeched. “Only
three hours ago I told you exactly that and you treated me like an
annoying child!”
And then the soft and caring Dimiti vanished and he
looked royally pissed and angry at me.
“Because you God damn act like one!”, he shouted
back.
And then … silence. The only sounds we could here were
the ones coming from the party inside. I looked at Dimitri and I
didn't see anything like remorse, or regret. The only feeling I could
see was anger, and it was directed towards me.
“What?”, I asked disbelieving.
I was acting like a child? What the hell, he disappeared
out of nowhere and I was only welcoming him back, hell I only gave
him a hug! He was damn lucky I didn't scream his head off for leaving
me alone all this time!
“You heard me” Dimitri replied in a calm voice.
“You are acting like a child.”
“Like – Like what? When?”, I asked bewildered.
When the hell had I acted like a child that could cause
this kind of reaction out of him!
“Oh for example our little run from the paparazzi?
First day at school?”
“You ran with me!”, I shouted back.
“Doesn't matter, you are acting like a damn child
Rose and you're making yourself and me look bad. I have to take
responsibility for your stupid behavior and I'm sick of it. You
laughing and fooling around or this whole PDA thing!”
“I -”, I stuttered. “I thought you liked me the
way I am.”
“I do”, he answered. “When we're alone or around
our friends. Not in public. You can't act like this around other
people.”
“Well Dimitri, this is who I am”, I replied pissed.
“Take it or leave it.”
And with that I stormed away from Dimitri and tried to
make my way back in. But the moment I wanted to open the door to get
back inside, Mason came out of it.
“Oh Rose, I just wanted to look for you, Mrs Hastings
wants to talk to us about -”
“You are here with him?”, Dimitri growled from
behind me.
I could feel his hot breath on my neck, which surprised
me, because I hadn't heard him follow me this closely.
“Belikov”, Mason nodded.
“I'm not talking to you”, Dimitri growled.
Dimitri's hands grasped my waist and turned me around so
I faced him again.
“You're here with -”
“Yes, she is here with me, now get your hands off of
her and let her go”, Mason interrupted him.
Oh God Mason, shut the hell up!, I thought, when
I saw Dimitri's eyes darken with anger. I wasn't sure if Mason was
incredibly stupid or brave.
“She is my wife and I expect you to leave us
alone”, Dimitri countered. “Now.”
“Rose, do you -”
“It's okay”, I answered, but my eyes never left
Dimitri's. “I'm gonna be there in a few minutes.”
“You sure?”
“Careful Ashford”, Dimitri growled. “It's not
like she has any reasons to be with you, but there are tons for her
to be with me.”
They both glared at each other, until Mason huffed and
turned around, closing the door behind him with a loud bang. Dimitri
glared at the closed door, until his glare was fixed on me.
Oh my, what now?
“You're here with Mason Ashford?”, Dimitri growled,
and he said Mason's name like it was some disgusting thing to say.
“Yes.”
“Why?”
“Well, you weren't here and I didn't want to go
alone!”, I threw in his face, but Dimitri wasn't faced at all.
It actually looked like he didn't care, his
mask was back on. This stupid mask that showed no emotions at all.
“And you thought you could just replace me with
him?”, Dimitri shouted. “Rose, I'm your husband and you can't go
to an event with someone else by your side! What do you think will
all the others think? What will the press think? Have you thought of
that at all?”
I haven't. Why should I have? Dimitri wasn't there, I
knew almost no one here, so I wanted someone I could actually talk
to!
“That's the behavior I'm talking about”, Dimitri
went on. “Things like this can't happen. Do you understand? And to
top it all of with Mason Ashford? Really Rose? You can't be seen with
a low life like him, he isn't suitable for us. He -”
“What?”, I snapped. “What did you just say?”
“I said he isn't suitable”, Dimitri repeated word
for word. “You can't be seen with someone like him.”
“Someone like him?”, I repeated. “You mean
someone who isn't rich? You mean someone like me? You know what, I
actually thought two weeks ago something changed between us, I was
actually stupid enough to think you may have changed for the better,
but this. This shows me I was wrong. You're still the stuck up rich
asshole I always thought you were!”
I pushed against Dimitri's chest so he would let me go.
His touch, his smell, his eyes, I couldn't take it anymore, I needed
to get away, I needed to get away from all of this! This was all
growing over my head, I had no control over anything anymore, every
thing was running out of my hands!
“You can't leave me here alone!”, Dimitri shouted
after me.
“Watch me!”, I screamed right back.
And the door shut behind me. For a moment I just stood
there and had no idea what to do. But then I heard Dimitri's
footsteps coming towards the door and I ran away. No idea where I
ran, I just did.
The party was still in full spring and most people
didn't even notice me running away from my husband, so no one stopped
me from my escape. Suddenly I was out of the room and silence
engulfed me, but I didn't stop, I ran and I ran and I ran away.
When I saw the sign for a ladies room I stormed into it,
barely making it before I puked my guts out.
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